Saturday, May 28, 2011

Update

First, thank you all SO much for all your kind words and love. They have indeed been felt and needed. This has been a very emotionally draining visit to say the least. Everyday we're hearing new stories, new updates. The death toll keeps rising. When we first got here, it was around 116, today it rose to 139. Theres still about 100 people missing. We are so blessed to not have any family or friends injured or displaced by the tornado. Everyone you meet out here though was in one way or another affected by it. Just going to get food or going to the store, the conversation always comes up "so where were you when the tornado hit?" A lady at Taco Bell had family missing who were right in its path. When people ask us we tell them were here from Idaho helping out, and theyre shocked. And then you hear about all the people from all over that came out to help. The amount of volunteers here is overwhelming. For several days we drove around asking who needed help and they tell us someone already came by and helped them. I signed up at a local organization to volunteer and there were more volunteers than people to help. I then went over to the local college Missouri Southern State University and signed up and was sent over with a crew to clean up fallen trees. When we first got there a man approached us and asked us to keep our eyes out for his young nephew. It was the story everyone had heard about. A 16 year old sucked out of his car returning from graduation and was no where to be found. And we were asked to look for him while cleaning up the trees. Just unreal. Today he was found in a river. James Dad works at Freeman Hospital and has told us so many stories of people that came flooded into the hospital that are just heart wrenching, one in particular. A woman was holding onto her 16 month old son so tight that she broke both her arms, but he was still ripped out her arms. They just found him recently as well. So many stories, so much heart ache. We were able to clean up a lady's yard who wasnt home but her neighbor said she would appreciate it. There was a tree uprooted that we cut up and brought to the curb. Turned out that the tree also broke a water pipe in the ground and was flooding the yard. We were there when the water company was driving by checking on houses and was able to get them to turn the water off. If we werent there who knows how much water would have dumped out and how high her water bill would have been. We also helped out James friends sister who had some down trees as well. Since theres so many volunteers we've been finding other ways to help, like getting James friends house ready to rent out to someone displaced, and James dad who has been putting in a ton of overtime at the hospital around here on the farm. Weve definitely been busy, and are very tired. I have a lot of cuts and bruises to show for the hard work, and wear them with pride. That being said, Im exhausted and am going to call it a night. For now Ill share the one picture that tugs on my heart the most. Theres a lot more to come, but this will do for now.


Monday, May 23, 2011

Total Devastation


Im still in shock over the tornado yesterday in Joplin, MO. I cant believe my eyes. Right where we use to live, places we use to go everyday. Places I use to WORK, where my in-laws work. Where family and friends still LIVE. James best friend Jared's neighborhood is gone, amazingly, his house is okay. Just a bent Dish Satellite and no power or water. But you walk out his front door and just a couple houses down, totally gone. He went out to help people, and saved a couple people pulling them from the rubbel. Unfortunately, there were some lives that he couldn't save. Even as tragic as a pregnant lady, in his words "she was just...dead." Im not quite sure how to process all this still. Seeing the images that I know where they are, but are just unrecognizable, not the same. Its still all so surreal. Its always hard to hear of devastation around the country and world. It always brings me to tears. And then you see it hit your home, and it becomes personal and that much more devastating. I love nature and always thank God for it, and then you see this happen and for a second you question that love. How could He make something this horrible happen? That ruins peoples lives? That takes peoples lives? I dont have an answer for it, but I have faith that there is an answer. Its just so very hard in the mean time. I keep praying for them in hopes that they find some faith as well.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I Forget...

I'm realizing I forget a lot about what this blog was intended for. I get caught up in wanting to post something great, something either interesting or fun or artsy. As I sit here filled with all sorts of emotions, I remembered my blog is my journal, my outlet. I should be able to share how I feel, and maybe not in a completely candid nature since this is a blog, but still be able to write (or should I say 'type') it out...

I feel overwhelmed...
anxious
hurt
mad
sad
stressed...

HOPEFUL

Hopeful that everything will turn out alright. That the things that hurt me won't anymore, and that I can become stronger because of them. That I'll be a better wife and mother because of them. I have fallen short on a lot of the roles I play in my life, but I know those are the two that I really can strive on becoming great at. I've been experiencing a lot of trials lately, a lot of set backs, but it seems that instead of James and I growing apart, were actually growing stronger. Which is surprising to me, because we've been through a lot in the almost 5 years we've been married, and I thought for sure these trials would really test us and bring us to our knees. Well, they have brought us to our knees, but in the greatest way possible. I am so grateful for the Gospel, for a Heavenly Father that I can pray to and know that He hears both James and my prayers. That through my Savior I can become whole and my weaknesses can become strengths. I know there will greater trials awaiting us, but I have faith that we can always become stronger together because of them.




Friday, April 1, 2011

Totally Post Worth

I am overwhelmed with pride right now over the hubby. I am so grateful for an ambitious husband who is a go getter and knows how to get things done. He recently got a highly sought after internship with the main hospital in our area, Eastern Idaho Regional Medical Center, working specifically with the COO, Chief Operating Officer. He went to a group thing with his health care class last night at the hospital where they got to do a Q&A with the CEO & COO. He got to talk to him one on one as well, and after telling him that he'll be doing an internship there this summer, the CEO told him that he was "lucky", and that very few get the opportunity to do so. WOW! Also recently, James got a TA (teachers assistant) position with the head of the health care dept, Bro. Tolman, who also use to be the CEO of EIRMC. Its paid which will be really nice, and will look AWESOME on his resume. After last nights group meeting, James also got to talk to the COO, he introduced himself and set up a lunch meeting to go over the internship and just to get a 'heads up'. This is all just hitting me, making me realize just how much James is setting himself up for success. He doesn't just sit back and wait for things to happen, he is MAKING things happen. He is a great example to me of hard work and am very grateful for that.

Monday, March 14, 2011

"lovers dance when they're feeling in love"

my favorite song right now. i could listen to it over, and over, and over...oh wait, i have been. ah love.

(side note: He Is We could also easily be my new favorite music group right now. they're album My Forever is amazing. pure amazingness)

Monday, February 21, 2011

"Coming Home"


Oh man, just watching this preview brings me to tears. Its about time they make a show like this. I am counting down the days till it airs, and stocking up on Kleenex.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

"lovely day, lovely day"

When trying to think of what to name this post, the very first thing that popped in my head was the song "Lovely Day" by Bill Withers. I LOVE that song and felt it described exactly what I wanted to share. In case you haven't heard it, it should be playing right now at this very moment on my playlist. Turn it up, its good stuff I promise.

So today I had quite possibly the best day I've had in a really long time. I finally felt like myself after battling the flu and an ear infection. That's always good no matter what's going on. I had a really good day at work, I got a lot done, felt accomplished, and enjoyed everyone's company. Not to mention had the BEST burger ever for lunch (I get free lunch every day at work, did I mention I have the best job ever?) Ok, now I have to share what it was. It was from the Snake Bite in downtown Idaho Falls, right around the corner from where I work. Its a cute little hole in the wall restaurant where hip people go. Anywho, I digress. The burger. Its called the Blue Snake River, a blackened burger with a bleu cheese & green chilies dressing & bacon, on a croissant type bun. oh. my. heavens. SOOOO GOOD. Ok, enough about the burger, back to my lovely day. I get home and enjoy time with James watching our favorite show The Big Bang Theory which was exceptionally funny and eating some awesome Chinese food (which I couldn't eat very much of because of my previous high caloried burger for lunch, my stomach just couldn't handle all this yummy food). Went to James' basketball game and enjoyed not only watching the game but spending it with some good friends from my ward. Then came home, oh wait I forgot about Doc! He got groomed today and looks oh so adorable. I just love my best friend:) Oh yeah, I also forgot I was able to return my rental car this morning and get my car back. Long story short, a kid hit me a couple weeks ago, nothing major, and had to get it fixed which took a couple days. His insurance is paying for everything, the insurance company was surprisingly very cooperative, they're not usually, I should know I deal with them everyday at work. Not personally, I only get the claim info initially, but I get to listen to my lawyer boss chew them out. Its quite amusing actually. Ok ok, where was I. Oh yeah, I got back from basketball and enjoyed some more time with James and Doc, and then went over to my neighbors/friend/ward members house for her knitting night with some others and enjoyed their company for a while. Came home, watched another one of our shows and here I am. Ready for bed and felt like it wouldn't do my day justice if I didn't document it. It's so important to remember the good days to get you through the hard ones. Oh, and I read this today on a blog I follow:

"If we are afraid to do what we want, or are insecure of what others may think, then thoughts stay thoughts, visions stay visions, dreams stay dreams and good lighting passes us by."


Ah, time for bed. Nothing like ending on a good note.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

love, love, LOVE

I found this awesome site through my awesome friend Des. If your ever in the mood to look at some sweet wedding videos, definitely visit it. I promise you wont be disappointed, I could spend all day on there. To enter pure bliss click here!

Monday, January 31, 2011

Wardrobe Challenge: Re-Do

 

Remember forever ago when I decided I was going to do my wardrobe challenge? Yeah, I'm not gonna lie, Im a slacker and havent really kept up with it. Oops. I did for a little bit back in November when I started my new job (oh yeah, I have a new job!! Im a paralegal for a law firm, Brent Gordon Law, and its hands down best job ever! But thats a whole other post) and I did it for, oh, maybe a week? Well Ive stumbled upon a fabulous new blog that Ive linked to my Sites to See, and she has this awesome challenge she does each season: 30 for 30. Well I got all excited to be a part of it, I picked out all my 30 items and was so excited to start it. But then I realized, I was abandoning my original challenge and I couldnt do that. I needed to follow through with it before I started on something else. So I thought to myself, why not kind of mix the two together? Genius! So, I have combined my 30 items to remix with the items I set aside for my Wardrobe Challenge, and they are living together in harmony. So, to keep myself in check and accountable for all of this, I will try my best to update my progress on here. But, Im not holding my breath, I have a feeling if I did there would be some CPR going on fairly soon.

(these are a few of the items that were in my 30 for 30, but also in my Wardrobe Challenge)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

A Flick Worth Watching

Um, I loved this movie. I love Emily Blunt, she did an amazing job. And Rupert Friend, I thought the name and his face looked familiar, and sure enough he is in another movie I adore, Pride & Prejudice, except in that one he plays the evil Mr. Wickham. Ahh, after watching this last night I wanted to watch it again, and again. Such a good love story. 

Monday, December 13, 2010

Behind the Scenes

You may think
I’m just fine
How could anything
Ever be out of line?

I take my time
To set the stage
To make sure everything
Is all in place

Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words

Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see
Anything
Through the dark
Surrounding me
And at times I’m unsure
About the ground
Beneath my feet
If it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen
I have peace in knowing it will find me

Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

You may think I’m just fine
How could anything ever be out of line?

To Button, or Not To Button?

So I have this cardigan that I LOVE, and normally wear buttoned, but last night decided to be bold and daring and wear it UN-buttoned. I know I know, I live on the edge. And then I thought, well what do I wear underneath it? If Im going to be bold and daring, I cant just wear plain old black, cause thats what I typically would wear. So I decided to wear yellow, and not just any old yellow, my favorite mustard, yellow cardigan. Thats right, Im wearing a cardigan underneath ANOTHER cardigan. Whoa Nelly. Im wicked edgy today. Thats right. I said wicked. Cant help it Im from Massachusetts.